I am happy to share that this May marks the 10-year anniversary of Shakti in the Mountains opening. Holy Cow!
In some ways, it feels like yesterday, and yet, that feeling does not explain the amount of wisdom and learning I have accrued in the last decade. I have met so many people, made many mistakes, listened to hundreds of stories, laughed countless of times, and received much love and compassion.
One of my biggest takeaways from this 10-year journey is learning to become my own authority.
Becoming your own authority is a work in progress: there is always room to grow. The biggest shift, at least for me, was changing my mindset.
When I first opened Shakti in the Mountains, I still had a lot of internalized, people-pleasing mojo. I wanted to be of service to everyone and would contort and accommodate to meet other’s expectations. This contortion was a huge energy drain and caused me a lot of heartache.
Most of this suffering was due to a desire to make things better…for everyone. I also suffered because I struggled with FOMO (Fear of Missing Out). I wanted to do it all because it all sounded so interesting or fun or exciting. Can you relate?
Another cause of my suffering was my fear of disappointing people, especially if I came across as a hypocrite. I was afraid to let people know I had a change of heart or mind. I was afraid this change would look like I did not care or understand or appreciate them.
I now know this fear originates from not enoughness.
Not enough time. Not enough resources. Not enough me.
Over the course of this 10-year journey, I have looked not enoughness in the eyes more times than I care to admit.
Every time I made a mistake, hurt someone, lost a relationship, left a relationship, or made a bad decision: I got to look not enoughness straight in the face. I got to sit with the doubt, pain and anxiety of not enough and it sucked.
Sitting in the discomfort of not enoughness was also a blessing in disguise. I attribute this discomfort to the change in my mindset. That and good friends and a good therapist.
The mindset change, at least for me, felt very subtle and grew more concrete the more I entertained the idea that the ultimate authority on my enoughness is me.
I had to sit with paradoxes like:
- Failure breeds success
- Setting boundaries restore freedom
- Admitting mistakes builds trust
- Vulnerability requires strength
In other words, I could get stuck in all my imperfections, judge and punish myself for messing up, or I could embrace my humanness and…
- Learn from my failures
- Listen for my no’s
- Apologize for my mistakes
- Speak my fears
I am choosing to embrace my humanness, which sometimes means sitting in the mud and at other times means reveling in the blooming lotus. As most wisdom keepers would point out: You can’t have one (lotus) without the other (mud).
This hard-won wisdom allows me to continue with my original vision of Shakti in the Mountains: to create a community which cultivates and nurtures feminine wisdom, leadership and energy. It is my sincere belief that the more of us who embrace this work – who choose to incorporate feminine ways into our lives – the healthier and more joyful our community will be.
Kim Bushore-Maki is a soul-driven entrepreneur who understands the undeniable urge to create a business and a life filled with meaning and purpose. Her vision of opening a center where women could heal and grow led her to open Shakti in the Mountains in Johnson City, Tennessee: a place where the creative, feminine energy is nurtured and valued.
Five years later, Kim is still in the flow of supporting and building a healthy, vibrant community and now guides retreats, teaches yoga, and provides one-on-one services for women who want an immersion experience into the life-affirming, Shakti energy.
Kim’s training as a therapist and yoga teacher allows her to safely and compassionately guide women on a heart-centered journey to Self, where women re-connect with their beautiful, authentic spirit.