Change is in the air. I can feel the shift in energy. It reminds me of riding a rollercoaster: the part where the cars creep up the first, big, long hill.

As the cars approach the summit, my stomach clenches in nervous anticipation. Thoughts of “Why am I doing this?” and “I hope I don’t die,”  circle in my head. To distract myself from my fear, I intentionally focus on the beautiful view which is only possible from such a great height.

On the climb to the top, I toggle back and forth between fear and awe. When the plummet finally begins, I scream, releasing all the tension – surrendering to my fear. Within seconds, my screams turn to laughter: I am giddy. Soon the ride is over and I feel victorious. I survived the rollercoaster and temporarily conquered my fear. I feel exhilarated.

What is so interesting is this sequence of events never changes for me. I always feel nervous and sick to my stomach before riding a rollercoaster. In fact my palms are sweating as I type these words. With little effort, I am able to recall the visceral reaction which occurs the minute I decide to ride a rollercoaster. The feelings of fear and anticipation begin the moment I step into line and do not stop until after my car plunges from the top of the first, big hill.

I think it is important to remind myself of the way I feel before doing something new and challenging – to remember that fear is part of the equation to change.

I don’t have to like the fear. (I assure you, I don’t.) I also don’t have to get over it. (I tried. It doesn’t work.) The only thing I know how to do is to move through my fear and pray the-moving-through journey is as short as it can possibly be.

It helps if I am not alone – if there is someone riding next to me in the car. (They usually laugh at my antics but at least they are there.) And sometimes, there is no one who can ride with me. Those journeys are the toughest, and fortunately, rare. I much rather be with someone when I feel scared.

Sometimes the person who helps is a stranger: someone who took time to see my fear and to offer support. Other times, no one is around and I have to ask. Asking for help usually requires letting go of my pride or my shame. I incentivize myself by remembering that my suffering is prolonged the longer I wait to ask. (And sometimes it still takes me awhile to ask.)

If you are feeling the shift in energy, if you are recognizing the need to change, then know you are not alone. I am riding this rollercoaster with you. In solidarity, I offer the following reminders to support navigating change. Please take what works and leave the rest behind.

  • Something may will have to die in order for transformation to occur.
  • When we are aligned – when our values inform our actions, then we are in integrity.
  • Be flexible and try something new.
  • Listen more than talk.
  • Be conscious of what is. Let go of what is not true.
  • Healthy power does not grasp or hoard. Healthy power aligns with your purpose and is collaborative. Root yourself in your authentic power.
  • Change involves making mistakes. Learn from them, and go on.
  • Change means you are alive and engaged. Static is not really safe: it is a type of death.
  • Being afraid or nervous is a natural part of change.
  • So is excitement and anticipation

As always, I would love to hear from you. Please share what change you are navigating.

In the meantime, I hope to see you at our first concert in over two years. On April 21 Roxanne McDaniel and The Big Bad Buzz is in the house!! I love their energy as well as their musicianship. Please buy a ticket and bring a friend. All ticket sales go directly to the band. It’s been a hard, couple of years for musicians, so let’s show them some love and financially support their artistry.

Have a wonderful week!


Kim Bushore-Maki


Kim Bushore-Maki is a soul-driven entrepreneur who understands the undeniable urge to create a business and a life filled with meaning and purpose. Her vision of opening a center where women could heal and grow led her to open Shakti in the Mountains in Johnson City, Tennessee: a place where the creative, feminine energy is nurtured and valued.

Since 2010, Kim continues to build and to support a healthy, vibrant community and now guides retreats, teaches yoga, and provides one-on-one services for women who want an immersion experience into the life-affirming, Shakti energy.

Kim’s training as a therapist and yoga teacher allows her to safely and compassionately guide women on a heart-centered journey to Self, where women re-connect with their beautiful, authentic spirit.

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