May has been a busy month for me. Between attending milestone celebrations and Shakti events, I have been on the move… a lot. The fullness of my schedule culminated last weekend as I feverishly worked to put young plants in the ground.
Even though spring historically heralds an increase in activity, this year’s level of engagement felt different. The additional commitments and work, while fun, were more tiring and I found myself wishing for more down time, more space.
“Is my response a function of age?” I wondered, “Or is something else going on?”
Then it finally dawned on me: my last two springs were vastly different than this spring.
Two years ago a global pandemic erupted. Life as I knew it came to a screeching halt and I no longer recognized my schedule.
My initial response to the pandemic was one of panic. Not only did I feel fear about contracting a scary virus, I felt anxious about losing my routine. Like many self-employed people, I was not sure how quarantine would impact my bank account. More importantly, I was not sure how to feel productive and useful without doing things.
What I have learned in the last two years temporarily vanished this spring. In my excitement to be with people and host activities, I forgot how it felt to move a little slower, to have more down time, and to behave spontaneously.
I don’t blame myself for forgetting. I appreciate the temptation to do everything you like all at once. In fact, I needed to forget in order to have the visceral reaction of “too much.” The stress of too many commitments always leads to the feeling of “not enough”: not enough time, not enough energy, not enough me.
This spring I was reminded, once again, of the importance of saying yes to what cannot be measured: my life force.
As we move toward summer, I intend to cherish my life force – to give myself the time and the space to be enough.
Kim Bushore-Maki is a soul-driven entrepreneur who understands the undeniable urge to create a business and a life filled with meaning and purpose. Her vision of opening a center where women could heal and grow led her to open Shakti in the Mountains in Johnson City, Tennessee: a place where the creative, feminine energy is nurtured and valued.
Since 2010, Kim continues to build and to support a healthy, vibrant community and now guides retreats, teaches yoga, and provides one-on-one services for women who want an immersion experience into the life-affirming, Shakti energy.
Kim’s training as a therapist and yoga teacher allows her to safely and compassionately guide women on a heart-centered journey to Self, where women re-connect with their beautiful, authentic spirit.